Like waiting for santa

I think that the rule should be that once you are packed you should be able to leave.

I was talking to the coolest summer student that i have ever worked with (your welcome christina) and she made the comment that it was like waiting for christmas. the tree is up, the cookies are out......WHERE THE HECK IS SANTA?

And it is so hard to stop doing countdowns because everyone keeps asking me about wedding stuff. I do want to share my info abotu my day because i am sooooooo excited but i almost feel like every time i tell someone about it, it moves farther away.

3 more sleeps as my niece....and my best friend would say......but i want it to be tomorrow

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better things to do with $21,000

i have a confession to make......i am obsessed with watching Say Yes To The Dress. I think that i watch at least one episode a day.....at least.

now i understand that there are people out there that have the money to drop in Klienfeld's, but i saw an episode not to long ago that totally blew my mind. this woman spent $21,000 on a (ugly if i may say so ) wedding dress.......FOR HER SECOND WEDDING.

I actually fell out of my chair, i was in that much disbelief. So i decided that i am going to make a list of more important things you can do with $21,000 other then spending it on one dress:

*put a wicked down payment on a house
*I could get a brand new mini cooper
*I could get 700 boxes of diapers at $30
* I could get 11,730 loaves of wonder bread at $1.79 a loaf
* i could get 13,815 large triple triples at Tim Hortons
*i could get 1400 mosquito nets for people in Africa
*I could get 210 goats for a family in Africa
*I could send 840 Canadian children to school with a new backpack full of school supplies

I will be the first to admit to you that i could be more involved in helping my community and other things. But i could never fathom spending $21,000 on a dress for one day when that money could go such a long way towards helping a needy family for a longer time then just one day

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Already a good wife

now i dont know when it started happening. but I believe that is was a slow progression and then all of a sudden.....bam my buggy is full of mens clothing and i am calling him from the mens wear department to ask if hwe would like a certain colour...........when does this happen?

i was just in zellers to buy myself some last minute things for myself and by the time i got to the check out i had one tank top for myself and 3 shorts, a wallet, a hoodie and some shoes for antonio. i mean i didnt even plan on buying him anything at all because i have already bought him a bunch of things.....sigh

so what i need to know is...does this stop? will i be able to go into a department store and only buy things for myself again? will i be able to walk past a mens specific store and not feel a gravitational pull to go in and at least look around for things that he may look good in? sigh...my shopping life will never be the same once i become a wife will it?

well at least my husband will be well dressed

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weird dreams

So those who know me well enough know that i have problems with sleeping. I am always thinking about so many things that i can never shut my brain off. Well of course with a wedding 26 days away (eeek) this issue has become worse.

I am up most nights until one or two in the morning, spend all night in and hout of sleep and then i am up at 7 am. but when i am alseep is when the crazy wedding dreams start happening.

Some of the first dreams started happening when i was in Trinidad in February and Antonio and i were trying to find venue for the wedding. we had search and searched and i was starting to get discouraged, when we stopped in for a quick visit at one of my uncles houses. so he recommended this place that he said would be great and he could get us a discount and all this stuff. Antonio had been there before and said it would be great and everyone would have somewhere to park and it was right in town. so by that point i was like ok well if you like it then fine. but being the woman that i am, as soon as i left my uncle's, i told Antonio that i need to see this place first.

Because is was a sunday the place wasnt open, so we could only see it from out side the fence. I knew my answer as we got closer to the venue but once we got up to the fence my decision was comfirmed. I tried to keep an open mind but.......ya no. but at that time we didnt have any other prospects so i told him that i would sleep on it and let him know

the next morning i called him before he came to meet me and i said to him "babe i love you but i spent all night having nightmares about that place....we cant get married there". i literally had a dream that while we were in there the place caught fire, then there was a serial killer that came in off the street, then we were all locked in and couldnt leave.....and they just kept getting worse. Needless to say i talked him out of that one.

some of the dreams since then have been anything from wonderful , gross, confusing, fabulous, strange.....i could go on and on. i cant wait until the wedding is over and i go back to my regular sleepless nights and my regular crazy dreams

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the evil green eye

There are some people that you will come across in life that only want to see you fail. they are the kind of people that whenever you have good news they are the first ones to play "devils advocate" and knock you down

I just sucks when it comes from people that are suppose to be like family or really close friends. you always expect these people to forever have your back....but you share good news with them and that eveil green eye comes poking out and all of a sudden your deal with a whole bunch of jealous.

not everyone is suppose to experience all the great things that life is supposed to offer at the same time. so why cant people be happy for others when they get there chance at happiness. I mean of course there are people that are genuinely always happy for you....which is great. there are the people that no matter what news you tell them they are going to say something negative......which you accept. but then there are people that used to be supportive that surprise you all together by becoming negative and you wonder what happened.......jealousy.

so what does one do? you move on and up anyway. because if you let all the people that are jealous of hold you back then you will be stuck on this never ending hamster wheel. sometimes these negative people have to stay as part of your life because they are your "family" but it doesnt mean that you have to stand by and let them spew there negativity on you all the time.

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whats in a name

My dad and i had a conversation about whether or not i was going to change my name. so when i said what i thought was the obvious answer.....which was yes.....he couldnt understand why.

it made me wonder are women not changing their names now a days? i never gave it a second thought about changing my name to Mrs Lopez. but my dad thought that it was obsurd.

then he suggested that i do the whole Straker-Lopez thing. to which i replied......NO. i already have 2 middle names if i then add on a second last name it is going to take me forever to write my signature.

This is when my mom chimmed into the conversation and stated that she should have kept her last name and then hyponated all of our names. so imagine if they did that then my new last name would be Charles-Straker-Lopez.....that is just crazy.

So i proceed to tell my dad that i thought it was sweet that he wanted me to keep my last name but that it was important to me to change it to be the same as my husband and that he had nothing to worry about and that the Straker name would be carried on with all the man Straker men that we have in our family and that he had nothing to worry about.

Who knew it was that important to him.....

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damned if you do.....

you know what drives me nuts? people that spend all year round complaining about the weather.

In the winter time they are like..."oh my gosh it is so cold. there is to much snow. i wish it was hot out, when is it going to be summer....." blah blah blah.

Then they finally get what they want and it is summer and it is hot and here comes more complaining..."omg it is so hot. it is too hot, oh man it is so gross out....." blah blah blah

i am not saying that i dont complain about weather. but the only time you will hear me complain is when i am putting on 12 layers of clothes to leave the house...but i accept it becuz i know that i live in canada and i know that half the year it is going to be cold. but i get so happy when it is hot out. it makes me think of my guy and Trinidad so i love it.

but if you are going to spend all year round complaining about the weather then maybe you should move some that has the same temp all year round.....like England. but then i am sure that you will complain about all the rain......

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Tradition or superstition

One of the first things that all of us girls hear about when we are little and talking about weddings is that on the day of your wedding you must have something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue. So while we are running around getting all of our other things for our wedding we are trying to find all these things as well.

But here is the thing.......i don’t really care about all those things. And the more time I put into thinking about what I can borrow from someone for my wedding day the more I want to just say forget the whole thing I don’t really care. Then I run into a problem. I become scared. Becuz I keep thinking that if I don’t do these things them my marriage will be doomed.

So I decided that I wanted to know where this whole things started so that I can figure out if it is worth it or not. The first thing that I discovered is that for many years people have missed out the end of the tradition. The saying is actually: Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue and a sixpence in her shoe. Now I know that a sixpence hasn’t been in circulation in the UK since 1980. So maybe that is why they dropped that part of it.

Here is a quick run down of what everything stands for.

Something Old: keeps the bride connected to her family. So traditionally her something old would be related to that

Something new: means optimism and hope for the future

Something borrowed: they say if you borrow something from a happily married woman then it is like they are sharing some of their happiness with you.

Something blue: blue apparently represents love, modesty, fidelity, good luck, purity and loyalty.

And a sixpence in her shoe: was suppose to bring financial security to the new couple.

Now that I know all this, I feel like I have to do it becuz if I didn’t it would almost be like I am tempting the fate of my marriage if I didn’t continue with the tradition. The question is, has this become more of a superstition then a tradition?

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Good intension was there but......

My future husband is a beyond wonderful man. he tries to go above and beyond to make me happy. and when he proposed it was quite the surprise. I mean, sure we had talked about it. but we had not talk about it happening when it did. which i think was great becuz it is really hard to truly surprise me.

But i think what he did not realize and what i think a lot of men dont realize is that once us ladies say yes, we are in a sprint to get everything that we want to make that day perfect.

so when we initially started talking about our wedding and what we wanted and how things were going to get done, i had said to Antonio "you know you are going to have to do the brunt of the work becuz i cant do it from here". so he was all ready to take charge and do everything....the first day. but as the days went on i can hear all the overwhelming pressure beginning to build and about to bubble over. until finally i got him to admit that he didnt want to do it all.

that is when he finally came to the realization that it is hard being a woman planning a wedding. there are so many little details that men dont think of that go into that day. little details like table cloths, centre pieces, flowers, music, invitations, a minister, dj and......i can go on and on.

but it made me wonder. do men really block all the wedding planning out and just show up that day in a new suit (that most dont even realize that you picked out) and think that all that just magically came together? i mean there are days that i know i call Antonio with a million wedding things that we have to talk about and all he hears out of my voice is the charlie brown teacher voice coming through his end of the phone.

I mean i have given him 3 jobs.....just 3, to do with the wedding and he still has yet to complete them. and they are 3 very important things that we cant do without, the pastor, the dj and the food. our wedding is just over a month away and i still dont have any of those things. and that scares me.....*place awkward laugh here*. I ask him about it almost every day also and he keeps telling me yup i got it under control and all i keep thinking is "is it normal for me to want to choke the person i am suppose to be spending the rest of my life with?"

why is it that i have this feeling that when i get there a week before my.....oops i mean our wedding i am going to turn into bridezilla? i mean he has helped out a bit and he has the good intention to help but.......it is like pulling teeth out of my own mouth sometimes. I guess the saying is true behind ever good man there is a great woman....telling him what to do.

All i know is........Antonio is lucky he is cute ;)

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